So I turned 40 this week
I knew it was coming
I could see it bearing down on me
And all I could do was stand there frozen
Like a deer in the headlights
I looked back on my life
And all I could see was the following:
Single Mom of 4 kids
Not exactly how I thought my life would turn out
18 months ago, my mother died
7 days ago, my grandmother died
4 days ago, I turned 40
Again I wondered how my plans could have been so derailed?
I never thought I’d be 40 raising 4 children alone
Without my mother or grandmother in our lives
And 40? Really???
What should I do now?
Buy Oil of Olay?
A barrel of Fiber from Sam’s Club?
A round of Botox?
Things were looking bleak
Until I opened a present given to me by my 16 year old daughter
Among other things, there was a magnet
That simply said this:
My daughter reminded me
That while I may still be obese
I’m losing weight and getting healthier
That while I may be divorced
I’m not alone (Matthew 28:20, John 14:18)
That while my Mother and Grandmother are not with me
They are healed and no longer in pain (Revelation 21:4)
And while I may be 40
God is not finished with me yet (Phillipians 1:6)
I look in the mirror and see wrinkles, some grey hair, and a double chin
Along with a life that didn’t quite turn out the way I planned
But God says
“Now that we’re done with YOUR plans….can we get started on mine?”
For I know the plans I have for you. Plans to give you a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11)
No matter what comes your way
Even if it’s 40
God has plans for you
He’s not finished with you yet
You may have to add Oil of Olay and some Miss Clairol to the mix
But He will add the wings
So you will soar on wings like eagles. Run and not grow weary. Walk and not faint (Isaiaiah 40:3)
And when you’re getting older, that’s just the kind of promise you want to hear!
So don’t forget
You may feel like wrapping yourself up in a blanket cocoon and crying your way out of 39
But you’ll wake up 40 ready to spread your wings and fly
Because you have a promise from the One who never lies
And He says
You’re loved with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3)
And isn’t that something to celebrate?